The end of May 2002, we closed on this home in Norwalk and began a life together, it was a brand new beginning. It has been an incredible ride. Politicians always seem to ask the question “are you better off now than you were?” The answer for me to that question as it pertains to the past 19 years is a loud, resounding YES!

I have enjoyed each and every moment, even the tough ones. I smile more, I laugh more, I am surrounded by a circle of very, very good folks. I’ve spent these past years doing something that has been a gift each day. This home has been a refuge, a place of joy and comfort in the worst of times. I am lucky to be married to someone who constantly expects the best out of me and who has worked tirelessly to bring that best out in me. I hope it shows even a little bit.

Today we spent the afternoon having lunch with Jennifer, Sue’s dad’s caregiver and companion for the past 4 years, right up until his passing. We laughed and shared stories remembering the “Earl of Haddam” as he liked to be known. It was another edition of “closing time” it felt good but it also has me having a very hard time tonight.

There have been so many versions of goodbyes and there will be more over the next 10 or so days, they are all good and all reminders of the love and caring that surrounds us. That said, I’m really having a hard time tonight, not doubting anything (wouldn’t matter if I did, the train is already on the tracks and the coal is firing and it will move along regardless). I just think some days are harder to process than others.

Guess that’s all I have to say today, just needed to give it voice.

It’s getting time to fire up the band and start singing the chorus…not just yet but soon…

“Closing time, one last call for alcohol
So, finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time, you don’t have to go home
But you can’t stay here“